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I live in the middle of nowhere.

It became official today, when I changed my address. But I've been moving my stuff over for weeks. Most importantly, my horses made the journey three days ago. So I might have said I lived in the middle of nowhere at the moment they stepped out of the trailer, because nothing makes a residence more official than their presence.

But there's something about the prospect of mail arriving with my name above this address, or friends and family updating my contact information in cell phones and address books, respectively, that makes it feel more real.

Like all my adult transitions, I have such mixed emotions about living in the middle of nowhere that I'm left numb, neutral, but basically with a pleasant sense of belonging. It is so quiet in the morning, early before the cattle begin anticipating breakfast. I can drink coffee by the glass doors off the deck, cross-legged on the carpet, and see my horses stirring in the pasture west of the house.

And there's a man here who I love, and compromises are part of relationships, and I feel a little like a pioneer when I think about how far I would have to drive for a Starbucks latte. (41.5 miles.)

To some people, I have always lived in the middle of nowhere. When I was in other countries and I said, "I'm from Kansas," they thought I lived in the middle of nowhere without knowing where in the more than 80,000 square mile state. And when I was a teenager visiting Kansas City and said I was from Abilene, a town of a whopping 6,000, many many people thought I lived in the middle of nowhere.

But this is seriously rural. A place where land has been in family for generations, where old women who play cards in the tiny café after lunch haven't left the county for years, where hearts can be very big and minds can be very small.

And here's me, a former vegetarian turned cattle rancher's lover, wondering what I will do with my sundresses and high heels.

But I'm also planning a massive and exciting to-do list of painting and papering walls, turning soil, riding horses as far as the dirt roads go and converting the barn loft into a writing oasis. The old smoke house into a tiny castle for future children who can play outside without fear, who will grow up knowing and helping neighbors, on horseback, in the gosh-darn FFA.

There's your update, interested persons. I live in the middle of nowhere, and it's not so bad.

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  • Current Residence: Kansas, US
  • Interests: writing, reading, horses
  • Favourite movie: In Bruges
  • Favourite genre of music: miscellaneous
  • Favourite poet or writer: Anne Patchett or Lorrie Moore
  • Favourite game: tetris
  • Personal Quote: Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one. - Albert Einstein
  • Tools of the Trade: bic pens - ballpoint, black ink; college ruled paper; absolute silence

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:icondimerization:
Hey girl, you write good.

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:iconchaldemone:
Happy birthday dear. I hope law school is being nice to you.

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:icondimerization:
I am sad that you have gone silent. :(

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:icondimerization:
Thank you so much for the :+favlove:! :hug:

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:iconwickedlovelywords:
Your work is the kind of writing that reminds me why I love literature!
Thank you for posting your work here. I am so glad that I've found it. You're pieces have given me so much inspriration.
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`Amberlouie May 5, 2010  Professional Writer
'lo! Please give love to this competition/and enter!: [link]

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~bleaksilence Aug 16, 2009  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yay for features: [link]

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:iconfloogamaga:
I adore your writings! [the ones ive read. im still working on them…] Ugh, I felt like I wasted time, not reading your works, when I discovered your many accolades. (If that makes sense.) You definitely deserve your praise, and I hope you receive more. Thank you very much for writing such entertaining material!

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:iconwretchedteddy:
i really enjoyed your DD'd story! I wanna read more but it is way too late. Good job though and keep it going!

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~purple-colossus Jun 12, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Your work is beautiful. Congrats on the DD!

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